Update 2/10/2015

Long entry up ahead, whoops--

Long time no see, guys.
Wow, I'm just now noticing that  the DA interface changed.
Haha that's how long I've been gone.
I suppose I'll still intend to be active on here.
I'm aware that most have moved to tumblr and whatnot, but I still wanna post here occasionally.
(I guess it's because I have a habit of having an up to date archive of things I've done just about anywhere online.)
It's probably been repeated many times, but it's mostly due to stress. I've had a tough year, and I've grown distant-- most of everyone I knew moved on and are moving ahead in their lives. I'm happy for them, but I suppose I've been too shy to reach out and still keep in touch. There's been so many people I wanted to talk to again or others I wanted to get to know better, but I'm not as confident as I used to be with following up on friends.
Anyway, it's a combination of this, trying to adapt and become more responsible, and also finishing up school. (That's kept me offline)
I haven't been active anywhere to be honest-- but I'm trying to pick up my spirits.
There's so many people I want to catch up with, it's felt like eons since I was involved with many online communities. 

In other news, I FINALLY am graduating from community college.
It's a relief-- because in fact, this is not the end of school for me. For me, it was just a stepping stone. I'm actually graduating two years late, Math was the biggest obstacle of all. To finally pass those courses was a dream come true. (That may seem dramatic, but it's because I had to repeat it for a while until it was finally over-with.) Truth be told, I really slacked off in the first two years. However, I finally picked up my act and now I'm out of there. I guess it takes a longer time for some to get a hang of being a diligent student. I needed to get the general academic courses out of the way, so that I can focus on what I love to do. So for me, this is really just the beginning. Oddly, I should be more excited, but I've still been feeling dull lately. When I say dull, it's just because I haven't been doing much with my life for the past several months. I think that will change once I become more proactive again.

Also, my birthday is in 4 days.
Honestly, I'm not very excited for it. (Especially since it's on Valentines Day, I can't help but to feel very uncomfortable)
Last year wasn't as special as it's been before then, so I really just want to treat this like any other day. Although there may be a possibility that I may touch base with really close IRL pals this weekend. (most of them aren't around in the city anymore so I hope to). I want this to be a year of growth and productivity, everyone seems to be doing their own thing and I'm looking forward to doing the same.

I don't really go online like I used to (even on Skype), but when I have time, I think I would like to change that a little.
I actually have missed a lot of you, and the times I've been involved in many conversations.
The last 2 years were not so good for me on my end, and I don't intend to repeat it.
Hopefully I can pick up my spirits, and try to be social and productive again. (as a person and artist)

I really do hope all of you are well!